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{When we simply crumble..} Chapter One: After he's crumbled...
by Firaga (black_mage_fire)
at July 2nd, 2005 (01:55 pm)

Momiji Sohma stared at his fingernails. He noticed that the paint was chipping. He sighed softly and began to look for his nail polish remover and his green nail polish. He wondered if he ought to go visit Tohru. Then he remembered. Kyo and Tohru were on a date. He growled bitterly. He normally didn’t feel this angry. He wasn’t always happy go lucky. He tensed, and then threw his nail polish at a wall. The glass shattered and the paint splattered all over the wall. He sighed softly, feeling moderately better.

Hatori ran in, “Are you alright, Momiji-kun?” Momiji nodded, not saying a word as Hatori eyed the mess he’d created. Then the older man left the room. Momiji sighed softly and threw himself onto his bed.

Depression had been flocking to the boy like a plague. Because he looked so small, everyone assumed he’d act as small as he looked. And he resented that. But the reason he hated his size so much was because he was sure that was the reason that special someone didn’t love him.

‘Kyo, I hate you! You have to date HER!’ He bit his lower lip to keep from crying, ‘What’s wrong with me? I look plenty enough like a girl….’ He sighed. He hated that about himself, too. He looked and acted like a girl.

He didn’t mind Tohru. She was his best friend in the entire world. But…it wasn’t fair that Kyo dated her when Momiji had been doing his best to get Kyo’s attention! It just wasn’t fair!

Momiji slowly got up, sick of feeling to his stomach. Everyone was starting to worry. He ate only one meal a day, if that, stayed in his room, and cried a lot. He also tended to force himself to throw up. He was starting to think that maybe he wasn’t pretty enough. Maybe he had to be even prettier to get Kyo’s attention.

‘I want to be as beautiful as Ritsu…’ He nodded and then bit his lower lip again, ‘I’ll never be as pretty as Ritsu. I’m not meant to be pretty, I’m meant to be ignored.’ Tears started to stream down his face as he walked into his bathroom and forced up what he had for breakfast that morning. He sat by the toilet, silently sobbing. Then he got up and something caught his eye. A box cutter. What the hell was it doing in here?

A wicked smile crossed his face. He snatched it up and made sure he has all the proper equipment. Then he sat on the countertop and slowly cut down his arm. Well, whatever it had been in there for, it was in the bathroom for a different reason now. Hopefully it’s actual owner wouldn’t look for it.

He watched the blood flow down his arm and drip onto the floor. Drip…drip…drip…he was almost mesmerized by it. Drip…he stared for a minute longer, then cleaned it. He cried out softly. Cleaning it stung. He felt tears sting the back of his eyelids.

He bandaged it and stared at his arm, then hid it with a long sleeved shirt. He sighed and brushed his hair, staring at himself in the mirror. He whimpered. ‘I’ll never be beautiful enough for Kyo.’ He noticed how his hair was longer than it should be. ‘Might as well get it cut…well…’ He smiled slightly, even though it was bitter, ‘Someone might notice if I don’t cut it. I’ll let it grow out.’ He ran a hand through the blonde mass.

He walked outside and headed to Shigure’s house. When he arrived, he saw Tohru and Kyo kissing. Not hugging, just kissing. He growled and walked around them, not even saying hello.

Yuki raised an eyebrow as Momiji stormed in and threw himself into a chair, “Momiji-chan? You alright?” Momiji shook his head.

“I’m fine,” He sounded bitter. He hadn’t bothered to put on a mask. Torhu rushed in, her eyes worried.

“Momi-chan! Are you okay, you look unhappy!!!” She ran over to him. Momiji sighed and nodded, not trusting his voice. “Well…are you hungry?” She asked. Momiji shook his head.

“I…uh….ate before I came over,” He lied quickly. She nodded. Kyo raised an eyebrow and kissed her softly, then she ran off go cook. Yuki beckoned to Momiji to follow him. He did so.

“What’s up? You can tell me anything, I won’t tell anyone else. We all love you, Momi. Is it about Miss Honda?” Yuki asked, “We’re a little worried about you. You’re getting thin…” Momiji shook his head.

“I’m fine, Yuki, don’t worry about it,” Momiji gave Yuki a hug and a kiss on the cheek, “Nothing is wrong with me.” Yuki sighed and shook his head.

“Whatever, Momiji….something’s up and I’m bound to find out sooner or later…” Yuki looked at Momiji. Momiji blushed.

“…I’m not eating, and when I do eat, I throw up,” He whispered. Yuki raised an eyebrow.

“You can’t eat things or you don’t want to?”

“I don’t want to. I’m not pretty enough,” Momiji looked terribly embarrassed. Spilling his secrets to Yuki-kun like this…Yuki was just being polite. Momi knew he didn’t care.

“…You’re fine how you are. What makes you think you aren’t pretty enough?” Yuki hugged the boy tightly. He just began to cry, not answering the question. Yuki rocked him back and forth, and he eventually quieted down and answered the question with one simple name.

“Kyo.”

Ah…this is pretty good. You can see the pairing. It’s easy, it’s right in front of you. And if you can’t see it..well…heh, you’re screwed! w00t! Well, I hoped you liked it, it’s kinda my first attempt at this stuff, and I’m not posting it on FF.net until I’m certain someone likes it. Well, see ya!!!

~Pyore and Firaga~

Comments

Posted by: alynxia_chan (alynxia_chan)
Posted at: July 2nd, 2005 11:24 pm (UTC)

o.O This doesn't have anything to do with that one shot I wrote, does it?

This is so sad! Momiji, you're pretty! I nuv you, ya adorable little rabbit! *cries*

*pats your shoulder* Congrats on taking on this pairing.

Posted by: Rebecca Harle Valentine (taki_sophitia)
Posted at: July 2nd, 2005 11:27 pm (UTC)

I wanted to do the pairing! IT'S KAWAII!!!!

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